Sofie Elias – 2017 Transformation Finalist
I never believed entering a transformation challenge would have been possible for someone like me, and when I look at my photos now I still don’t completely recognize myself!
My struggle with weight has been lifelong. Like many others I’ve been up and down on the rollercoaster mostly using an upcoming event to motivate myself for the next weight loss. The trouble is that events come and go and with it the motivation and willpower go too. Even after having lost around 10kg for each occasion by restricting my food intake I would look at myself in the photos and could never truly feel good about myself. I always felt like the ugly duckling amongst beautiful people.
In 2004—I had a family wedding to prepare and lose weight for. Yet again I turned on that willpower, restricted my diet and dropped 10kg. I was happy with my achievement but somewhere inside of myself I knew that although 110kilo was better than weighing 120 kilo I would still be the big girl in the room. During that wedding ceremony my life took an instant tragic turn. My gorgeous mother had a stroke and passed away during the ceremony completely unexpectantly. My mother’s sudden death devastated me and made me numb to the world for quite some time. I gave up on weight loss – what was the point? I’d done it many times only to review the photos after the event and still see myself hiding in the background behind ‘the beautiful people’ and to top it off the reward I got this last time was the sudden loss of my mother.
It took me a while to recover enough from my loss, to return to work and feel like I was living life again, but I had a mental block about dieting as it resulted in loss and failure in my mind. I had never exercised much, I walked a little and 3 years ago tried a bit of cardio. Unfortunately, the cardio resulted in a shoulder tear which although much improved now is still limiting my movement.
Everything changed in June 2016. While out for dinner with friends one of them encouraged me to come to her I.C.E class the next morning. I really didn’t feel like it and didn’t think it was for me but I went along to please her – she was so insistent, I couldn’t refuse! The trainers were amazing and guided me through that first session but I really wasn’t sure I could do it. After chatting with Rineke and Elizabeth we decided F.I.R.E training and nutrition would be better for me given the rehabilitation that was needed for my shoulder.
My first reality check came when I was weighed and measured. My secret was out. There were now two people out there who knew my size, I couldn’t hide anymore, I had to face reality. I also had a family wedding coming up 4 months after joining It’s Personal Transformations, but this time I realized that the trigger in my mind associated with weight loss for weddings/celebrations was all negative because it was associated with failure. I needed to do this for me now, not just for an event.
The support I received at it’s personal from both the trainers and the community was amazing! I was apprehensive about FIRE training but when I realized I could achieve and progress without being injured I started to love it. The nutrition was something I had never experienced. With only 3 hours between meals there just wasn’t time to become hungry and the selection of food available was amazing. My body responded and the kilos started to come off. After my first training block I added I.C.E to my F.I.R.E program and with amendments to compensate for my shoulder I became fitter and stronger! My posture which has been compensated by my height, weight and shoulder tear has continued to improve.
Four months after starting MP I went to the wedding feeling proud, 15 kilo lighter and more in control of my life than ever before. I also knew this wedding wasn’t the beginning of the end as it would have been in the past. It was a marker in a continuing journey of success.
Another four months later I had yet another wedding and by this time I’d lost a total of 30 kilos. My trainers took me shopping for a dress which was a magical experience! They convinced me to come into shops I was used to walking past but once inside dress after dress actually fitted me! I came away with 2 dresses. At the wedding the comments and feedback I received were AMAZING!! I felt like a bride myself and I can look back at those photos feeling proud and beautiful!
My journey continued, I just stuck to the 10 point system exercising 3 hours per week and I steadily made adjustments to my food choices. I now believe and see that food is fuel for my body, not a reward or punishment for the thoughts and feelings in my mind. I’m in control and I’m in charge of my emotions and choices. It’s not always easy and I’m not perfect all the time but I’m continuing to live this life and continuing to improve.
MP has been so much more than a diet and exercise regime, it has helped me peel away the layers of denial, habits, thoughts, emotions and poor choices a little at a time and has allowed the person within to flourish. I’m still in the process of getting to know that person but I really like her! I wish I’d got to know her sooner! I’m confident, I have a new belief in the real me, I have courage I didn’t have before and I don’t need to hide in photos! None of this would have been possible without It’s Personal Transformation! Your gentle and patient guidance has revealed a completely new person. I know there’s even more to discover and I’m so excited to see what it is!